Wednesday, January 28, 2009
{ 6:22 AM }
there's a guardian made for each and everyone of us. they are the people who are always behind the scenes doing their best to keep you happy always. have you found that guardian of yours? i've found mine. but maybe it's a bit too late now. but at least i know that i was not alone through my growing up years.
i'll always love you grandma, no matter where you are.
what if you were to die tomorrow, will you regret living today? will you regret living at all? i think i'll regret. i still havent found that reason to be satisfied with my life. maybe all my life i've been trying to blend into the backgrounds that i've forgotten i'm even existing in the first place. maybe, just maybe one day i'll do something that for my whole life, i'll remember that i've succeeded just because i managed to do that thing. but for now, as i look into the mirror, i have a big question-who am i? who is that girl in the mirror staring back at me? this is a journey in search of self identity. i wont live in regret if i can find my old self.
Saturday, January 24, 2009
{ 5:49 AM }
i'm wrong. i didnt know i was until i had a setback, until i learnt how to crawl on my knees because i couldnt walk anymore. day and night i think, i kept on thinking until now, i dont even know what i'm actually thinking about. why do i have the abililty to assume things. i assume that i'm smart enough to do things right. i assume i have the strength to set things straight. time and again, i assumed. i thought i was nice, but i'm cruel, mean and detestful (if there's such a word). i didnt even know why i ended up where i am now. everywhere is so misty it's hard trying to find a way out. sometimes i try so hard i feel like a fool. why stay optimistic when being optimistic is so unrealistic? there's no right and wrong in this world, but only shades of grey, so stop giving everything a definite answer.
and the stars decided to lead the way.
Saturday, January 17, 2009
{ 3:27 AM }
i tried to stay far away from it, but it just seems that no matter how much i tried to keep my distance, i still end up having to face it. why is life so complicated? a few more weeks. i told myself i few more weeks and maybe i would have the load off me. but i have already told myself this phrase ever since a few months ago. this time, i am sure this will come true.
school reopened about 6 days ago. everything is as usual. life is as sucky as ever. i dont understand why i'm such a magnet for trouble. everytime i try to stay out of trouble, the trouble will automatically look for me. sigh..guess there's still more to come since it's only like the beginning of school. is the my 10 months nightmare began just a few days ago..now i start to wonder when i would wake up. why did i even chose to sleep in the first place.
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
{ 7:20 AM }
i want a make over! i want to change my hair, my face, my body and my heart. wait, maybe my brain too. is there any place where i can go for this treatment?
Friday, January 02, 2009
{ 7:33 AM }
i just watched twilight today! i'm so happy i finally got to watch this movie(:(:(: although the movie was quite different and not as exciting as the storybook itself, it was nonetheless worth watching(:
now i shall go work on my holiday assignments=( jia you everyone doing your holiday assignments(: